Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in The Phantom Writer's LiveJournal:

Monday, March 24th, 2008
4:41 pm	Masks and thoughts So yah, been plodding along lately, not really caring much of either way. Nathalie is on her spring break, so it's been sort of lonely (lonely=introspective for me, sadly.) Been thinking about many things, mainly the masks I put up for public. About the only person i don't put up a mask is for Nathalie, and even then, that is only sometimes. Not sure if it is paranoia, or just an unwillingness to have to deal with people. As the days go by, I wonder to myself, am I just emotionally strong to not be affected by a lot of things, or am I just already broken? And to be honest, I don't know. I don't even know if I would know the difference between the two. The masks I put up... it's scary how many I actually have. Hundreds that I actively use, changing for each person, and creating for each new person. Conforming to what they would expect me to be like, and never showing who I truly am. I'm not sure when it started, but fairly sure it's a defense mechanism, what else could it be? I doubt it is amusement, although it can be at times. I wonder sometimes though, how fucked up am I that I have to fake for each person that I talk to? The worst part though is that question if I ever find someone to be with... did they fall in love with the mask? Or was it really me? I guess I'll never really know the answer to that, heh, because what are the chances that someone will fall in love with me? No idea, and I don't have the patience to deal with that kind of accounting. I Man, this is a long rant, fuck this shit, I'm going back to work. (Comment on this)
Friday, December 7th, 2007
12:34 am	Why? Why do I keep making a fool of myself looking for a relationship? (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 29th, 2007
11:44 pm	Lately So yah, talk about one hell of a busy time (not to mention I really forgot about this till lately.) So yah, I am in college now, rather interesting, small college at that. The first semester has a week left in it, and then finals, and home. Not really looking forward to the last part. I'd stay here if I could, but it is way too expensive for my tastes to do so. So yah, I'm playing catch up with paper revisions, studying for my final exams. The nightmares have come back, it seems every night I wake up retching from a dream. I just hope they never came true, haha, if so, that'd be quite depressing. Well I am out to go read, ciao. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Paralyzer by Finger Eleven (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 15th, 2007
11:44 pm	1.) Private investigator, magic, wizard (Dresden Files, guess by hopefulnebula) 2.) Cop / Irish American / Cult Favorite / Enemy 3.)Hallucination / Good Versus Evil / Atmospheric / Demonic Possession / Demon 4.) Investigation / Co Worker / Kidnapping / Female Agent / FBI Agent 5.) Art Deco / French Accent / 1930s / Belgian / Murder Investigation 6.) Good Versus Evil / Disaster / Religion / Devil / End Of The World 7.) Psychic Power / Autism / Blood / Extrasensory Perception / Ghost (Rose Red, guess by hopefulnebula.) 8.) Double Agent / One Day / Terrorism / Undercover / Mole 9.) Based On Comic / Vampire / Werewolf / Zombie / Paranormal 10.) Extraterrestrial / Telephone / Space Hero / Unlikely Hero / Tragic Hero Guess them if you can bwhahaha! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, January 29th, 2007
8:49 am	Snow! It be snowing outside, and school is cancalled. Mwhahaha! Finally, it is cold enough to do that! So happy, going to go out and have in the snow! ~Phantom (1 Comment |Comment on this)
6:39 am	So here it begins Heh, here I am 1:30 at night, still not able to sleep, so I thought I would just do soemthing out of the ordinary (for me at least). So yah, if you are interested in anything personal about me, you can message or e-mail me and all, but I'd rather not discuss some things with completely strangers. So yah, pretty much what I do is write. I might post some little snipets up for debate, or maybe even a story a time or two, but no idea really what I am doing to do this. *shrugs* Well, the main thing that any reader will want to know is that I am sort of... out there. I can be quite odd at times, and almost always eccentric. I still go to high school, but this is my last year, and praise be to whatever cruel, divine being that is out there. Going to college, finally. Recently, I am working on a story (novella/novel) that will hopefully pan out. The idea is a classic, idealist romance novel.. in the first half. The first part is a reclusive writer, named Edward, who has been required to go to a gala becuase he does not want to write an article for a snobbish magazine. So it goes on that he meets the artist purely by accident before hand, falls in love, but then something happens (can't figure out what yet, have time to though, I am not even half through the second part). This whole first part is in Edward's eyes. The second part, will be in the artist's eyes, which will be the reality of the situation. The reality is that the man, Edward, is a schizophrenic, reclusive writer who saw her before the gala, and strated stalking her. Well there ya go, a brief look into my writing. Listening to: Rapsutina, A new Zero (got to love their cello-ish rock.) Mood: Zombie-like ~Phantom (Comment on this)